xx.5 I binged.

It’s all in the title guys.
I’ve binged and I am really unhappy with myself.

It all started yesterday when I went home and all we had in the fridge was beef steaks, now that’s not the problem really, I could’ve easily had beef and veg.
But my mum’s friend was round and well let’s just say it lead me to making spagbol with beef bits instead of minced beef.

So I ate that for dinner.
Then I made pack-lunch of the remains for today and ate it (today).

There was also a chocolate bar involved but I am cutting my female body some slack as it’s THAT TIME.

But bottom line to all this is that I’m truly pissed at myself and since I’m still crippled (see previous post) I can’t even go to the gym to work it off.

So, my answer to this was to create a diet plan to help me back into ketosis as quickly as possible.

Diet Plan

7:30am – MCT Oil teaspoon (increasing to tablespoon over time)(https://www.amazon.co.uk/Available-Friendly-BPA-Free-Caprylic-Ketosource/dp/B01M12RE4D)

8:30am – Coldbrew Black Coffee or Regular Black Coffee (Depends on the weather)

12:00pm or 1:00pm – Banana/Strawberry Protein shake (mixed with unsweetened almond milk)

Black Coffee and water throughout to curb the hunger pangs

18:30pm – Meat: Fish, chicken, beef, lamb etc.
– Veg: Broccoli, Spinach, Cauliflower, Salad etc.


I will buy some almonds, bring some celery or boil some eggs just to have as a last minute resort but I am adamant to stick to this.

We begin clean tomorrow!

xx.4 – It hurts.

Good morning all,
Let me tell you a little about my experience yesterday.

Please note I have never done a gym class in my life (school doesn’t count).
Anyway, me and my friend took part in our first class “Legs, Bums & Tums”.

It. Was. Brutal.

I knew I was unfit but I didn’t know HOW unfit I was until I took part in a class that I couldn’t even complete.
It consisted of lunges (with weights), wall sits (with weights), squats (with weights), pulsing all the way through (WITH WEIGHTS).
Safe to say I now hate weights.

I also developed a lot of shooting pains in my lower back which I am assuming is a result from an old back injury from where I used to carry heavy boxes of milk incorrectly when working at Costa Coffee.
Which was the main reason why I quit the lesson 35 minutes in.

I’m glad I quit, as I know my body’s limit.
However, I am in severe pain with my thighs, they’re literally like jelly, walking is so difficult now. And I have a full ache in my lower back just like when I first hurt it.

I don’t think I’ll be participating in those classes until I’ve got some strength back in my thighs.

I’ll just continue with the cardio..



Day 1,

Hello there,
Welcome to my blog.

This is an area for me to document my journey on becoming the best version of me, strap in because it’s going to be long one.

There are many areas of myself that need improving:

— Weight
— Skin
— Hair

— Wellbeing
— Positivity
— Self-Confidence

These are the things that need to be addressed in my life so I can live in harmony.